It’s been a while!!! No new is good news, and in a way the reason their has been no news is because I have been busy living!
Since last writing a post, my mom had come to visit me, I went diving with seals, joined CoppaFeel!’s Summee Boob Tour at Leeds Festival, walked in the Peak District, ran the Great North Run and trekked the Great Wall of China in aid of CoppaFeel!
Crazy- to think I have managed to fit this much into just 3 months (I work full time too!!) My brain sometimes struggles to keep up with all this craziness- sometimes I realise that possibly I should sit down, have a breather and just relax, but then I notice that I am crap at that! I am at my best when I am super busy and don’t know where my brain is! That is what I call living!
A couple of days ago I wrote a post in a young cancer patient’s Facebook page- I was replying to someone’s question whether it was normal to feel scared, upset and lost. This person was questioning whether or not to do chemo and felt rushed, felt like a marionette- dragged from one appointment to another- decisions being made for her, no time to breath… I could empathise with her because this is exactly how I felt when I was diagnosed in 2012. This was me 3.5 years ago!
What a difference 3.5 years make! The difference between racing around because you want, rather than because you have to! Not knowing where your head is because you have choosen to do too much, not because you are scared and overwhelmed because you don’t understand what is happening! Realising that you there are things you can’t change, and knowing to accept these, whilst concentrating on things you can do!
I guess, I am back in control! Back in control, because I have let go, I know I can’t control everything, but I can control how I deal with the now! and in a way that’s what I told this person…
Life’s good right now- and there is so much more I want to write about, but need to find the time for.